Friday, April 2, 2010

Another Reason I USED to have the blues: Breaking vows & Ending Blues

 Dear Reader,
Let's be honest. Let me be honest. Often I have a great idea pop into my head, only when i got to execute whatever brilliant plan i just dreamed up, I find I haven't the words to express what I mean. Or, there is the even more disappointing times when, I go to excute the crazy thought in my head, i find it is not logistically possible, due to some minor oversight that I overlooked. That kind of thing- having a dream or a thought or a goal and letting it go because something stands in your way- happens to everyone.
        Of course, before I knew better, grew older, wiser, and decided that I wasn't born an unhappy loser and wasn't going to take ANYTHING laying down, I would just give up. No use banging one's head against a brick wall. But years of that gave me the blues. i'm not talking about clinical depression, but I am talking about the blues, in a real sense. You could just look at me and tell that I was "debbie downer". For those of you thinking to yourself, Good for you. You got over it, getting OVER IT isn't always easy. And just because you have so far been unable to GET OVER IT, doesn't mean that you don't DESERVE help.
 So if you're having trouble shaking off the blues here is a solution that worked for me.  All I am proposing, is that in order to stay motivated, and in order FOR YOU to bring more happiness or SATISFACTION into your life is to bookmark those failed plans & come back to execute them later.
The reason I'm ranting about this is that 1) i was inspired to by the following quote :
The vow that binds too strictly snaps itself. ~Alfred Lord Tennyson,
and 2) because it is how i GOT OVER my blues.. although it was more like getting through them . 
If I'm still confusing, then let me be clear. I was unhappy because i made all of my life decisions based on critical moments. I knew I loved music but told myself that it was stupid for someone like me to even think of making it. I VOWQED that I woould never think of it again, in a way. I'm sure that if you took a couple seconds you could come up with a couple examples of vows you 've made to yourself, that place your happiness in the control of a very specific set of circumstances. And when the circumstances are against in the one moment, you tell yourself I am so stupid not to see that I lack the resources (time, money, talent E.T.C.). I will never allow  myself to think like that again. OR I am so stupid, I always do this behavior. I cna never change ( I VOW that I CAN"T CHANGE MY BEHAVIOR)
Truth is, you have thoughts about that forbidden subject all the time. OR you want to change your behavior.If you think of your dream to travel often, and you begin to take it seriously, in time, you can find a way to- no matter how poor you may currently be.
If you tell yourself , it'll never be, when you really want it, it will never be. You will hurt yourself. You will break down and suddenly your life will suck. Do yourself a favor, and loosen up. Sometimes you have to rephrase the vows we make to ourselves.
BREAK THE VOW & remember in a year or two what looks impossible now may be a little more realistic. :)


 

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